The final stretch...

Well, I really have nothing exciting to post today. To be honest...I am feeling somewhat lousy for several reasons.

1) Physically I haven't been feeling well these last few days. It started out with a bit of a cold (though in general my respiratory system isn't handling the pollution here so well) and now it seems like more of a flu. Yesterday I felt sick to my stomach all day and I was so happy when I finally puked (sorry for that...). I was up most of the night (except for the 2 hours when I had a nightmare about surviving an earthquake but being stuck in the rubble - only to wake up to a massive thunderstorm). I did eat some food earlier today but I'm starting to feel like maybe that was a bad idea as well. Add to that a headache and sore muscles.

However...it hasn't been ALL bad - I got to be in bed allll day, Suzanne came over to drop off some food and to take care of me for a bit, and I got to read some good books. I was relieved about the fact that no students stopped by today - I think I would have been tempted to pretend I wasn't home... All in all it was WAY more of a relaxing Saturday than I normally would have had. Probably good to have a break like this every now and then...

2) I am tired of thoughts about the future. I feel like I had 2 great options a week ago: work/school. I ended up turning down the job offer and decided to pursue a Masters in Counseling. However, after sending in my application etc. I got an email from the admissions counselor saying that the program is not quite like he had described it before. He explained how the program was set up and now I am not quite sure about that option anymore either.

I think at this point I am just tired of doing everything through email. I've been teaching 7am classes so I never feel like staying up late enough in the evenings to phone during North American business hours. All in all I am just 'fed up with it'. I think I'll just forget about everything and wait till I get home. It'll be much easier to organize things from there. So...I guess I am back at square 1. I might work. I might go to school. I might be a bum for the rest of my life. I am sure things will work out - they always do! :)

3) The 'news' of the earthquake is sinking in here. On the 19th of May at 2:30pm (exactly 7 days after the earthquake) there were 3 minutes of 'silence' - though cars were honking and sirens were heard for those 3 minutes as well - the sound of wailing. This country is clearly in mourning. It's been a difficult year for China...

Wow...I hope all this didn't make you feel lousy as well :)

I must say I am thankful for how the thunder/rain storm last night made everything green and fresh and smell good. The sun was shining this afternoon and it was great to hear the students playing in the school yard during their 24 hours of no class. I haven't been without power for quite a while. I have more than enough food to eat (for when I feel like it). I don't have to spend oodles of money on gas because I can walk everywhere. Living in the mountains is great. The apartment which I live in is much bigger and nicer than I need. And I feel loved.